|Hang in there baby...it's going to be ok!|
Marty as you can tell had a pretty emotional week. He returned to school reluctantly Monday, he'd heard that a storm was coming and he desperately hoped for a snow day. When it didn't come he was mentally unprepared for the start of the school week. I can tell he had a rough time at school, he has a hard time making friends, and when I picked him up one night he asked me if I liked him. My heart broke. Of course my first thought was I've failed as a mother. My own son does not know how much my world revolves around him. I have not shown him the depths of my love; the lengths to which I would go for him because I like him just that much. Wait. Take a deep breath. This is not about me. Or my parenting, but rather Marty is out in the world and he's discovered that it's not always so easy. What I wouldn't do to take on the second grade for him, but I simply can't. He has lots of ups and downs ahead of him, I can't hold his hand through all of it, and frankly if I did then he'd learn nothing. As a parent I have to step back and recognize that all that I've learned that meant anything to me was from experience, the good and the bad. And I'm still learning.